While contemplating these men, I realize that I complain WAY to much! It is hard to be grateful for all you have when you are complaining about all the rotten things in your life. Laman and Lemuel were constantly complaining about their brother Nephi, complaining about Lehi, complaining about the Lord and all the HARD things the He asks of them. I love what Nephi tells his brothers when he says that he knows that he had spoken hard things against the wicked and the righteous had I justified. YES!! He also said "the guilty taketh the truth to be hard, for it cutteth them to the very center" (1 Nephi16:2) This made me wonder if I take the truth to be hard. Sometimes...especially if I really like my sin and don't want to give it up! Occasionally I find out I am sinning and really didn't realize it was a sin. This happened to me a couple months ago. I was studying Christlike Attributes in Preach My Gospel. I was reading about pride when low and behold it reads "to be prideful means to put greater trust in oneself than in God or in His servants. It also means to put the things of the world above the things of God. Prideful people take honor to themselves rather than giving God the glory." Here comes the bomb shell...wait for it... "Pride is competitive" What!! I am one of the most competitive people I know! How could this be? Competition is what makes me get up in the morning. Competition is my LIFE! This was hard for me to read! I think I may have actually audibly gasped! I thought "How can this be?" I didn't want to believe it! I was in deep denial. I think I may have fallen into the realm of "the guilty taketh the truth to be hard". Actually I know I did! It took me quite a while to even come to terms with this! Since this time I have spent a significant amount of time studying out this concept in my mind. I am realizing that this is an area that I have tremendous room for growth. I think I may have been "cut to the center".
I saw a meme the other day that really made me think about my level of complaining.
I consider myself a woman of faith. I believe in God, I try and live my life the way the Lord would want me to...but I complain about it WAY To much! This quote made me really take a self evaluation and question if I am taking my complaints to the Lord. I have realized that I talk when things are hard for me as a way of coping with my struggles. I call it talking but I am sure my friends and the Lord consider it complaining! I want and need to take my concerns to the Lord and surround myself with more positive talk. I want to be the type of woman who sees her blessings in her life and points them out instead of the "hard things".
This is my goal...to talk about the joys in my life! I am an incredibly blessed woman! I have four AMAZING children. I have a family that has my back 100% of the time. I have amazing friends who have been with me through thick and thin! I have a ward family who are unbelievable. I have the gospel of Jesus Christ which sustains me and lifts me and carries me when I am too weak to carry myself. I am one of the luckiest women I know! I love my life and am so grateful for ALL things which are in it!
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